Highest Highs to Lowest Lows

There have been times in my life where I have experienced some of the most spiritual experiences in my life; firesides, temple visits, testimony meetings, member visits, etc.  It has been awesome!  I come home after that and feel so high on the spirit that I feel as if I can do anything.  I always recommit myself at that point to do better in following the commandments and in serving others.  It seems that nothing can go wrong at that point and I thank my Heavenly Father for the great blessings I have received, then the most unusual thing happens.  I get a very strong desire to look at pornography. Why would that happen?  It is to the point where 99% of the time I cannot resist and fall back into the cycle. 

If you can imagine or maybe have felt the spiritual high I described above, can you imagine the low I feel after falling that far after returning to the cycle of pornography?

What do you think?  Why does this happen, does it happen to others or am I alone in this?

Something to thing about…

Focus on the Important Things

Having that focus makes a hung difference.  Here is the list of the most important things to me that help me stay focused: 

• Being there for my family
• Being worthy of the Priesthood of God
• Being worthy of the Spirit of God
• Being worthy to perform ordinances (blessings, baptisms of my kids, ordinations to the priesthood for my boys, etc.)
• Being worthy to enter the temple of God
• Being able to be with my wife in the eternities

This way, my mind stays focused and doesn’t wander into strange paths.

What is on your list?  What do you do to help keep your mind focused on the important things?

Apology…

I would like to apologize to anyone who might be following this blog, hoping for some help or insight into helping themselves with their pornography addiction.  I have not been very good at keeping up on this blog.  I’m going to do better.  I know how much it helps others to hear about others’ experiences on overcoming a pornography addiction. 

Today, let me just share a link to a blog post by Mark Kastleman, the co-founder of Candeo.

Pornography and the Mole Crickets

This article describes exactly what is happening in our society today.  The question is: “How much damage will the underground mole crickets of porn inflict before we take it all seriously?”

Source: Candeo